Purple - Red = ?

Alright so it has become very apparent to me that I need to find some type of outlet. I find myself hitting these walls and life seems to lack joy. I should make it a habit to sing, “I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart; down in my heart; down in my heart. I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart; down in my heart to stay.” (And the world sighs a collective sigh of relief that they didn’t actually have to hear me sing).

The fact that I am feeling this way seems a tad ironic to me considering the title of my blog.

"How does one take control of their Attitude?"

I pray and I know that I don’t spend nearly as much time in God’s word as I should, which bothers me. I need to spend more time in the presence of my Father.

So what does one do when they are not feeling Purple but blue instead? That is the question of the day.

I often struggle with this because my attitude directly affects the attitudes of seven other people and the effects of that make me even crazier.

So I must concede. As I sit here and ask God, “Daddy, what is it you are trying to teach me?” He replies ever so subtly as he often does, “My Child, I am the potter and you are the clay.” Ok so it is an answer what it means is still somewhat unclear, but I am sure it will be revealed to me at the appropriate time. Obviously I am not finished yet, I hope He didn't just smash me all back together to start over, although, that might be easier. I am also very scared. Am I going to come out looking like the soap dish I made my mom when I was in the first grade? Thankfully even if I did I am sure my Father would consider it a priceless work of art; as did my mom her soap dish.

Isn’t so funny how our Heavenly Father always knows exactly what we need right when we need it. Lately my one and only true desire is to become the wife, mother, woman that He wants me to be, and look at his response to my outcry of despair.

So what is a woman to do?

Allow herself to be molded? Fight the process? Try to help The Big Guy along(resulting in the soap dish)?

Hmmmm…..Why is it always the hardest one?

Thanks for listening